Life stops you in a way you never imagined even ...... you feel short of breath, you're going to fail, your knees are broken and fall at any moment.
Sitting in front of the Doctor listening to what he has to say, you get to see the movement of your lips, you know exactly what he is saying, you know the opinion of life is giving, but only perceive the sound because the information is paralyzed ... discernment feel that takes forever, then do not feel understood nothing of what you hear, sounds entering your ears but do not understand the words ..... go back and look at the Doctor, feel his anguish, the feeling that bundle up your child at that moment but you get to deal with such circumstances is an elementary part of his life.
You feel you stop breathing, your world stops and in front of your eyes look like the movie of your life is planned in a second, you see girl, young, your grades, marriage, births of your children, laughter, crying .. strangely feel that there is more things past, a moment that you forgive all your mistakes, and there is nothing else that matters.
You do not see anything but this day, the minute that is culminating, time tracking, no matter who makes more tomorrow because it becomes your only goal to be good now, and that happened to me, will survive a week, one month a year even ........ if so fatalistic things feel after receiving a diagnosis.
I feel all the time, anger, pain, distress, fear, terror, fright, frustration, I trample all kinds of ideas, good, not so good, your mind is not clear for a few moments, you feel fall into a dark abyss that overshadows all mental clarity that is always with you, but no idea how to walk! really fleets.
View and listen to all your family, friends have to say, you see the confusion of his words and the confusion of your hearing, you understand to mean, you see their despair because their words will embrace and achieve surround the pain you feel and convert it calm.
See this day as the only day of your life, you see a stage finish and start another look at the same instant.
Want to believe it was all a bad dream, do not let this happening to you, you wake up and all ........... stay the same then you look back, you confirm that from now on this will be your reality and that there is no awakening, you will be simply this forever.
ecember 23 / 10 ... Day I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer.
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